Shit Slap

Roller-coaster is not the word that can truly describe what I am feeling. I've had a panic attack or two, I think stemming from the fact that my son's blood pressure is high... due to his heart defect. Of course I am in a state of anxiety because I can NOT deal with another heart surgery at the moment. But I can NOT abide seeing/hearing him huffing and puffing while walking up 10 stairs. Boy, when life slaps you... it slaps the SHIT out of you!