This morning's commute wasn't so bad, although I had to pass my former home, which sort of sent shivers through-out my stomach. I am determined to get over this one way or another, I've come up with numerous ideas on how I can. And it's all going to be done in the name of my son... I owe him so much that it kills me that I  have screwed up so badly I literally die a little, when the thoughts refuse to vacate.